I contemplate

So in life we often wonder what direction we are headed in, we ponder our futures, fates, and our success. But, sometimes we have no clue as to what it is we are doing, although it is clear that we have many desires, dreams, hopes, and aspirations, we wonder will we ever see the realization of them? and what are we doing now to ensure their success? (excuse the grammar not feeling very grammatical right now) So I contemplate.....

You told me I had purpose
You told me I had a place
You told me I had talent
But I seemed to have lost it along the way
in this journey we call life
the day to day drill the
ups the downs
the highs the lows
the joys the sorrows
the innermost place where only you see
you see me
in all my nakedness
no I can't hide from you
I can't pretend to be
I can only be me
at the end of the day
with my flaws layered upon my shell of outer protection
with my wondering and contemplation
of what is to come
I'd love to live each day as if it was my last one
but I can't
because the shadow of tomorrow is always there
waiting
lurking in its guise; oh how I despise the day doubt
I'd much rather live in the comfort and security of your shelter and protection
So I cast aside this contemplation of what could, should, and would be
I shroud myself instead in what is, and I cover myself in faith for what is to come
and always, always, I pray a prayer of thanks for what has passed, the good and the bad
for with each day I gain strength to live!